I will answer your question with another question.
First ponder this list of how life can be for a sufferer of depression, and I will ask the question at the end. Put yourself in the shoes of someone suffering depression for the next five minutes.
• Any dreams, ambitions, hopes or aspirations will be crushed out of you, leaving nothing but memories of what ‘could’ have been.
• Any relationship you have can easily be dashed against the rocks of depression. Friends, family and loved one’s, depression doesn't discriminate.
• Depression can turn you into the person you never thought you could become, and keep you there.
• Nobody is coming to the rescue,there is only one person in this world that’s going to get you out of this hole, and you look at them every time you look in the mirror.
• You will never experience rock bottom, just more of the same. You will never hit solid ground to bounce back from. Even that hope is taken away.
• There is no depth you can’t descend too when it comes to feeling hopeless, helpless and worthless.
• Most of the time you won’t even know why you are depressed, you just will be, thus adding confusion and frustration to the mix.
• There will be no limitations to the amount of guilt you will feel.
• You will be distraught at how quickly you can lose interest in the things you once held dear and where passionate about, including your own life.
• You will live in fear of how quickly abnormal thoughts can become normal thoughts, you never thought about suicide before, until now.
• No matter how well, or how long you knew someone, you never really knew them at all. Friends can easily succumb to your ravages of depression and desert you exactly when you need the most help.
• Even if you are lucky enough to climb out of that hole for a while, that shadowy figure is still standing in the corner of the darkened room, waiting.
• You will crave sleep, as it’s the only respite you get. But, even then you can’t escape the nightmares that come to visit.
• The future is something only ‘other’ people dream about, not you. You will learn to dread it.
• Imagine what it is like to be in a room full of people you know and love, and they can all feel like strangers.
• No matter how many times you try and explain how you feel, nobody is going to understand, secretly some of them will be thinking ‘it can’t be that bad’. You will even start to doubt yourself if you are ‘that bad’.
• The stigma surrounding depression is very real, and something you will have to struggle with on a daily basis.
• People will think if you don’t look depressed, you can’t be depressed and therefore faking it. No matter how bad you actually feel.
And now the question.
If you had to suffer all of the above and a lot lot more, how do you think you would cope? Would death seem like an attractive option to take all the pain away?
Unfortunately that’s the sad reality for a lot of people.