In the end we only regret the chances we didn’t take

What if I die tomorrow?

If I die tomorrow, I'm going to remember how much time I wasted giving chances to the wrong people over and over. I'm going to remember constant giving without receiving back. I'm going to remember feeling like "the other one" - whether those were friendships or relationships.

The second choice, the safe choice, the greater good. I wasn't the first choice, but I was a choice in the end. They knew that if they chose me, I wouldn't let them down. They knew that I'd be there, I'd listen, I'd care. And I did all of those things. But I wonder - was I ever listened to? Was I ever cared about?

Everything in my life felt one-sided. Everything I've dedicated myself into, everything I've loved. You can only lose so much without giving up. I think that I gave up years ago. I've accepted this world for what it is - and I've come to the realization that, in the end, I will have no one but myself. Expecting any kind of reciprocation became naive, absurd.. you name it. I'd persuaded myself that that's just not what I should expect - and if I find myself expecting it, I'd end up unhappy.

So I accepted being taken from but never being given back. I accepted anything as long as I felt safe. I knew what to expect and what to not expect. But as soon as my expectations became close to nothing, I knew that I'd been doing something wrong. I knew that that's not the kind of life that I wanted to have. I'd hoped that I deserve something.

If I die tomorrow, I'm going to regret everything. I'm going to regret the chances I took and wish I didn't take them. I'm going to wonder how would my life have looked if I decided to follow the walked paths. I'm going to wonder whether what I did was too much - or it wasn't nearly enough.

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  1. 1

    23 ročný chalan

    and you know what life is about ?
    or you are just struglling between days and you hope someday it will be brighter tommorow ?
  2. 2

    24 ročný chalan
    Bratislava / IpD

    Put jór hends on d stôl!
  3. 3

    23 ročný chalan

    ved mi odpovedz :D
  4. 4

    hrá sa, že má 0 rokov
    tulam sa

    @prey01 tazko odpoviem ked v otazke nepouzijes do :(

    a neviem, o com je zivot a myslim si, ze je to velmi individualne a kazdy ma v zivote inu hnaciu silu (a niekto aj ziadnu, takze som ta druha, struggling moznost)
  5. 5

    23 ročný chalan

    do { ("and you know what life is about ?")

    systém.out.prinln("už máš otázku aj š DO ;)")

  6. 6

    hrá sa, že má 0 rokov
    tulam sa

    @prey01 nn neviem lebo si myslim ze na tuto otazku neexistuje odpoved, zivot je o tom, o com si ho spravis