Welcome to the Madhouse in my head.

Welcme to my Madhouse. Again.

So damn it! Sweet!

I am also one of that naive humankind, who believes in good fortune, bliss, happiness, luck and stuff like that. I thought that everything will turn on my side. Just right holy shit will happen.

I am so blind and deaf, that I do not know about the cruel reality. That´s it. That´s my problem.

( I have no idea why I am writing in English, but I have just started with that. Let it be. )

Everything is fucked up. Everything. I would not say it before a minute. I have no idea if I am so emotional, moody, or whatever.
I have been pissed off by just one read sentence. This one short line, that can mean absolutely nothing.


We are so desperate. Both.

Sometimes I have sadistic whims, lusts.

I am afraid. Afraid of something. Something new? Yes, new but not for me. For someone else. I am so jealous.

Damned foretime. Or better to say damned dreams, ideals, thoughts. Of mine. Not all, only that ones, that were coming across last three months? Or four? Now I am afraid, that I made so many mistakes, because of one thing, that cannot be reached. I am always thinking about it, and probably will think about it for some future time.

I am a veirdo. Madman? Maybe.

Nowadays, I am kidna scared about it. I mean future. How it will be.
I hope no.
I will trive to forget and forgive. For a while.

And what I wanted to say?
Just my thoughts...
Please help me.

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